Weird

Well the past few days have been brilliant. This boy that I met is absolutely amazing and makes me really, really happy.
Buuuuuuut there is just one thing that's kind of bad.

Now one of my friends keeps acting kind of odd. Like I understand, maybe she's jealous, maybe she hates it when I mention him because of that, maybe she's not JEALOUS as such, just kind of wistful or something, maybe she is just genuinely sick of me talking about him (even though it's been just a few days and I don't think I could have caused that much brain damage to her in that time) or maybe there's something else going on that I don't know about. But I don't fully understand why she will come on msn claiming to be a shit person and saying things like that she's been "kicked into the gutter" or something, when that really hasn't happened at all.
I definitely DON'T think that she is a shit person, I think she is a brilliant person.
I don't think she can say that I've ditched her for my boyfriend or anything, when I've only been with him for three days or something. In that time I have gone out with him ONCE, and I have gone out with my friend ONCE. Other times I have hung out with my sister or stayed at home or gone to university and hung out with my uni friends.
I don't see that as ditching her or turning her into a third wheel type thing or anything.
The other strange thing is that in real life she's fine. We're fine and cool and nice but then when we talk via MSN or something it turns almost nasty. Sometimes she says things that I just really don't understand. They really make me feel bad.
Not angry, I don't really tend to get angry at her, and not depressed, I'm far too happy for that at the moment. But there are things she says which just get to me a bit and make me wonder if I really did do something bad. But I don't think I did. So then I wonder where it's all coming from, and why she'd thinking it, or whether she's even thinking it at all or just saying it. Then if THAT were the case, I wonder why she says it if it's not what she's thinking.
I also wonder if she sometimes talks about me behind my back to other people. I understand if hse does, I probably would too f I were in her spot, I think it would really be unavoidable unless you just never spoke, but I hope she doesn't say man things about me.
I don't know why, if we're such good friends, it happens like this.
That something happens that makes me really, really happy and then she goes all weird on me like I've done something bad.

Maybe it'll just take a bit of time for her to see that I'm not ditching her for a boy.
And you know, if I did then ditch her for the boy, I guess it would prove that I am a bitch who doesnt care about my friends and she wouldn't want to be my friend anymore anyway.
But I'm not going to do that. I like to think that I'm not a mean person and that I can handle being nice to my friends.

You know that when I say the generic comment "I really really like you" and don't specify it to anyone, it applies to you too right?
I can like this boy and still like you.
Be happy about life.

It'll work.